Nineteen

So yesterday was my birthday. I am officially nineteen. Not like it really means anything though. It was a pretty good day. The whole week I kept complaining because my mom had to work late and so did Jake so I wouldn't get to see either of them. So with my family we did my presents the night before so my mom could be there. I have a 7am class and I try to be in bed by 9 and we didn't do present til late so I was really tired as you can tell.

Abby gave me her present first. She is a little psycho! She gave me a thong and a cookies and cream chocolate bar. My mom said she was searching for over thirty minutes to find the ''perfect'' underwear for me.

Cole gave me his present next. He's the best. He got me peach-o's and green and silver nail polish. When I opened it, he kept saying look at the colors, what do they stand for. I guessed Slytherin and couldn't think of anything else. They were for the Eagles. He is so sweet. He knows exactly what I love.

This little crazy was last. She always does that cheesy smile so I did it too. She got me one of those necklace holder things that are a body. I should've taken a picture of it but I didn't think to. It is perfect. I have been wanting one of these for so long! Every time I see one I tell Jake how bad I want it so I'm glad Ali got it for me.

Mom and Brett got me my own PURPLE luggage set! I was so excited. I have been wanting my own for a very long time. It seems that I have been going on a lot of vacations and it will be nice to have. I'm super excited to use them.

So on my actual birthday, my mom came and picked me up from work and took me out to lunch. We went to the Pizza Factory and it was great. I have my leftovers and can't wait to eat them. When I got back to work I was really depressed because Jake had to go to work at three. So at three he stopped texting me and "went to work". When I walked out of Sierra~West at 5....he was waiting outside for me! I was so surprised! He took me to Carrabas for dinner. And it was soooooo yummy. I got the sirloin Marsala's. It was so so so good. And of course we had to get the chocolate cake as well :)

Then we went home and Cass came over for Cake and ice cream and she gave me a tye dye kit and some white tee shirts. I'm excited to do those. Mom made me home-made German chocolate cake with homemade frosting. It is my all time favorite cake :). I like what Brett did with the candles.

I have the best little brothers and sisters. Aren't they so cute? After Cass left Jake and I watched Black Swan. It was a way pooped up movie. But I liked it. It turned out to be a very successful birthday.

Happy (:

Yesterday was probably one of the happiest days I've ever had. My Mom, Brett and Ali were all sealed in the temple and all of the kids were able to go inside the temple and be there for that special day. I have never felt the spirit so strong and I never want to to forget that day. It will be number two after I get married (: I want to start going to baptisms for the dead more because it feel so awesome. I'm glad I am able to go into that sacred place.

Before we went into the temple my aunt Whittney took some family pictures of us. It was freezing and the sun was in our eyes. She has posted a few on her blog so I stole them. But she does some awesome photography. Check her out at http://whitneyleighphotography.blogspot.com/

Time and All Eternity

We got some fantastic news this weekend. My parents are finally able to get sealed and Ali gets to get sealed to them. I am so so so excited I can't even describe it. Andrew, Cole, Abby, and I all get to go  in when Ali gets sealed to them. It is going to be such a neat experience. We all get to wear white and go in the sealing room together. Today when we went into the family bishop's interview Ali said to the bishop, "I get to go the temple and get sealed." and Bish asked her what that means and she said, "I get to be with my family forever." Even Ali knows how important the temple is. I am glad I am worthy to have a temple recommend and enter the Lord's house. It will be an awesome experience.

Bleh

So I decided last night that I am going to print off my blog into a book each year. I found this website that does it for pretty cheap and it looks good. So I want to make my blog more meaningful and not just stupid things to post like facebook. I'm excited to do it because it will be like my journal since I suck at journaling. So as you know, Jake and I have been watching Disney movies ALOT lately. Last night we watched Tarzan and tonight we watched The Rescuers. I kinda feel like a complete nerd when we watch them because I totally start giggling when something funny happens. They just bring out the little kid in me. I love how we have been watching little kid movies. Its fun for a change. We have fun watching them too.

On another note, it's my spring break! Hooray. I have been working full time and going to school full time and its been pretty hard this last semester. I got promoted and Jen quit so I have had to step up a lot at work. And the classes I signed up for aren't exactly a piece of cake either. So I'm glad for this time off at school. I still have to work but I at least I don't have to be to Calculus at 7:00am. I have been waiting for Spring break for a long time so I could spend more time with Jake. I know I see him everyday but its only for a couple hours because I'm in bed by 8:30. So I asked my parents if I could stay out late last night.....and I came home at 10:00.....Pathetic. I know. I just am always tired. I'm pretty much just going off on nothing important right now. So I will head to bed.

Music Describes My Mood

The Story

Brandie Carlile

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do
I was made for you
You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what
I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

 

Grace

Kate Havnevik

I'm on my knees
only memories
are left for me to hold
Dont know how
but Ill get by
Slowly pull myself together
Theres no escape
So keep me safe
This feels so unreal
Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace
I feel the cold
Loneliness unfold
Like from another world
Come what may
I wont fade away
But I know I might change
Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it was
Turn my grief to grace
Nothing comes easily
Where do I begin?
Nothing can bring me peace
Ive lost everything
I just want to feel your embrace

Baptism

Today was a really great day. One my cousins, who is also a really good friend got baptized today. I am so proud of him. I know it was a hard decision for him to make with everything he has to go through at home but I know he made the right choice. This is the second baptism I've been to that is convert. The spirit there is so so strong. I am so glad that I was able to be there to support Wesley today.

I have a testimony that this church is true and that our Heavenly Father loves and knows each and everyone one of us. I know that everything we do in this life matters. I know that families can be together for time and all eternity when they are sealed in our Heavenly Father's temples and I can't wait when that time comes for me. I know that Joseph Smith restored this gospel on the earth so that we would know the truth. And I know that my Savior died for me so that I could be forgiven of my sins. 

In 7 Months...

I have a lot of goals that I want to accomplish by October. They aren't really long term goals...

Just things that I want to MAKE SURE happen before I go to Disneyland.

It's stuff I always say I'm going to do, and NEVER do it. So...

Here it goes.

Maybe if I

write them down they will be easier to follow. That way other

people know that I am working on these things it will make it easier to do them.

So if someone says, hey how are your goals going. I can say that they are going great. So ask me.

{1} Stop drinking Caffeine.

Anyone that knows me well knows that I am addicted to Dr. Pepper. Like I usually always have one. And I know its not good for me and I know I need to stop. Not just Dr. Pepper and caffeine, but soda in general. I love milk and juice, I just hate water. I need to start drinking more water probably too. Which I have already started. My last carbonated beverage was Sunday, March 6, 2011. I want to be like Coley and quit caffeine forever! Then maybe once I can control myself, just drink a sprite or something when I go out to eat.

{2} Start Exercising
This one is really bad too. I have a desk job so its not like I move around a lot. I don't really walk around campus because all my classes are in the LA building. So I really want to start on it. Jake wants to too but every time we say we are going to...we don't. I want to try and wake up a little bit earlier every day and do little things and then run when I get home at night. Maybe it will help my knees get stronger too. I am doing the Susan G. Komen 5K this year and I want to be in shape for it. I want to be in shape when we go to Disneyland too so I don't feel all gross and tired.

{3} Start Saving Money
Jake and I discuss this all the time. We are both spenders. We LOOOOVE spending our money as soon as we get it. We usually take monthly trips to FYE and spend over $200 on movies, video games, and cds. Pathetic, I know. I have actually been doing pretty good lately. When I pay my tithing, I just put the same amount plus a little more in my savings. It's only been two paychecks but hey, its a start. I also want to buy a new car this summer and I want to have a little money for that.

These are the three goals that I talk about doing the most so I really want to do them. It'll be hard but worth it. :)